Hellooo...

Hi all...
back from beijing trip...

anyway,
i like to clear some stuff of me...
To tell the truth to everyone out there,
IM A SUPER INTROVERT!!!
But why am i always raising my hands to questions and answers,
why do i do daring things in front of the teachers,
why do i volunteer to answer when nobody else wants to go first??
well, the reason is a long story which i once wrote in my previous post,
but exceeded the word limit and was lost...
Anyway, to cover up my shyness,
I have built a wall around it, containing it.
And on the outside of the wall,
painted on them,
was childishness,
jokes,
laughters,
confidence,
and all the stuff u guys see.

But the problem is, im not...
Im beginning to hate this wall...
I dont want to be childish...
I dont want people to view me as the boy who is innocent and always laughing and joking and monkeying around...

i wont say why until im ready, or else it will give people the wrong idea...
just..
believe in me.