Tried to

Hopefully nothing will go wrong with my posts again =.=
im sick of blogger screwing things up.

anyway, i wanted to talk about things that i wish i were xD

Haha, yea i know it will be really childish, but hey nobody reads stuff here anyway lol.

Anyway, recently i have been looking at some animes here and there, and then i saw a few videos about drawing, and read a few mangas here and there.

I guess i remembered how badly i wanted to be able to draw.

Its not just about using it as a medium to achieve my dream.

I really look up to these artists.
Being able to express and convey personalities through a few lines.
Thats whats its all about xD

Making a person go through an experience is something,
conveying it to them through words is another,
expressing it in ONE picture is a whole different thing.
that's why i look up to artists.
I saw this video of a talented anime drawer who has only started for 2 years ._.
but his work was fabulous,
he's so good that he developed his own way of drawing/painting eyes
which is used in visual novels to convey life in just one picture.

Then i saw a few J-rock videos and Funtwo (the guy who had 60mil views on youtube for playing Canon on his guitar)
It just make me want to learn the electric guitar even more...
but what i really want to have,
is to be like them, able to express themselves honestly.

Then i saw a few dance and stunts videos...
I know i always have a sudden burst of inspiration to do something just because i see it from the videos...
but today i watch them...
and i think that i should do something ._.

argh.. what am i thinking...
I just watch youtube live 08...
and then i see all these people lives' being changed by youtube...
and then i thought, hmm do people just post things and then they become a celebrity on the net?
No.
You have to have something to show..
and then i thought what if i had thought about this earlier, then i could have been like them..
thats when i remembered,
"Its not what you learn that matters, its what you do with it that gives you results."

Anyway recently i have watched a few videos of talented people,
and everytime i look at them i can't help but feel this aura around them.
its just brimming with talent.
they don't even have to showcase their skills, it can be seen from the way they entered the stage.
This is when i start thinking what it is that makes them have this special aura...
i guess i will never know the answer though,
until i somehow end up like them...

I have to practice on something and stick to it ._.