10 dec 2010

back from chalet.

when going home i sort of hear some stuff,
and i start to ponder...

i have been troubled by my own problems that it has been so long since i did anything for anybody.

and so i ask myself,
when will i have the ability to help others?

EDIT:

Man...

i don't know how it turns out like this.
are u finding me annoying?
it sucks.

talking to u is painful,
and yet i have to put on a smile.

constantly trying to ask u out.
u reject everytime indirectly.
why cant someone just tell me she is with somebody or something,
make me give up on her.

when was the last time i saw u?
when was the last time i was with u?
so long ago...

i miss talking with u,
laughing with u,
calling you,
saying good night to u.

sucks...

its so painful talking to u,
but i really wan to hold on to u,
so i keep saying hi,
and start random senseless conversation,
wishing that everything will suddenly turn back like before.

EDIT:

haha, i so wish i could sing to you bruno mars " just the way you are" just now,
really..
i think u re amazing, just the way you are.

even though u might find that only me is not good enough.
but.. i still think u really are amazing, not just to me.

okay, i shud stop saying all this, later ppl start asking questions.
or worse, she reads this.